im really gasping for breath. been breathless for so damn long. nothing seems to be going right. like abt wad happened a few weeks ago. i dunno why the fk i forgot the DVDs but fk i really did. its like she KEPT reminding me knewing how forgetful i was, even told me to put it in my bag. but i was just too lazy to move a muscle. cool shit.i feel fkin remorseful. we didnt chat nor kept in touch after that..
and the hectic and stressful school schedules. im FAILING all my subjects. so many shit in my mind now.. friendship.. stephanie.. studies.. CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO HANDLE SO MANY THINGS IN ONE GO? need to make new friends.. MAINTAIN OLD FRIENDSHIP. THINK OF WAYS TO ENCOURAGE HER WHILE I NEED IT TOO? studies. dunt mention about it. 0/10 for maths, 6.5/30 for chem 0.5/10 for chem as well. tutorials tht look alien to me. 3mths stuff to catch up. now canoeing is adding the stress to me.. though im in much hurt really. and when i need consolation the most, she left and went to her friends hse halfway in the night. she was in a foul mood tht day and i had to encourage her though it didnt help much. played soccer for a while cuz i REALLY NID TO UNWIND. guess she wasnt happy with that. though i felt like crying and breaking down. i tried my best to stand. shant elaborate wad happened exactly.
whilst i need encouragement, i had to give it to quan n neeeeky my best buddies. even their problems bugs me really. i cant help but think for them though i have SO MANY SHIT IN MY HEAD. but seeing them being better really makes me happier. i felt worse when i heard alfone contemplating between me and bealson for the team. i ALWAYS PLAY MY HEART OUT FOR THE TEAM AND THIS IS WAD I GET? i really sian 1/2. but well. i really express my gratitude to alfone and quan for encouraging me in studies. and fridays really help me man. meeting justin, lele, yx, zambak. though we seldom share personal shit. but well they are my buddies (:
project work.. tutorials FUCK IT ALL LA.
grandma, quan, neeeeky, json and alfone pls help me..
i really love you steph.
