Rare rant of ozy is here! wooo~

ive made a firm decision. never in my life had i done such a decision. yea i chose to apply for a poly next year. i feel so relieved. like its a dream waiting to end and its taking forever to stop. however i need to work LOL. damnit. my parents are unwilling to give me a single cent. im flat broke. nice. well to be frank, i regret the decision of choosing a junior college in the 1st place. however my classmates rock big time. i really miss them like anything in the world right now. sent me smses. initially i dare not face reality, however i need to be firm and decisive, humiliation is something i have to bear since im 18 in a poly blabla~ however i did not, definitely regret any moment with my classmates. 07S09, im sorry for not being able to last for 2 years. and Alfone. words cant describe how much i want to tell you about this and my gratitude towards you for this year. you were always there when i needed someone. you had to tolerate my irresponsible behaviour. though i can see that u are pissed when i do such stupid stuff but u try to tell me off in a most apt or subtle way you can think of. yea im such a disappointment and you better score for your promos. i didnt want to tell you personally about my decision as i felt guilty in someways esp when u sent me that sms during your birthday. if you dunt care about me, you wouldnt feel pissed when u see me idling or slacking right? you are one of the best buddies i ever had (:(: however sad to say, arsenal wont win the title this season.

well for me, im gonna find a job. until next year. i wasted my one year of my life and i hope i wunt do that anymore. i hope the real happy me resurfaces! im taking this half a year to rest(kinda). sorry zona, i cant tell you how many sorries i am to you. everytime u lend me something, the item be it anything will have a bad end. its like i cant forgive myself even if you forgive me, im like a burden or something. thats why i try my best to listen to what ever you say. be it put the plates back or whatever. the other day at jurong point where u got pissed. i really wanted to say sorry. but if i said sorry and then started to do stupid stuff that pisses you off, what for? so i didnt do anything about it, much less talk to you after that incident. i really really want to say sorry but i cant. weidi is another person i wanna apologise to, like when i joined canoeing, i kept psin him, though he kinda pissed i guess, but he doesnt mind and we're gd friends until now. haha sorry for psing. i really wanna say I AM SORRY to the whole class. i love my class. kept encouraging me and sorts.