Saturday 30 August 2008
MAG.
size does not matterthough peekchures mean thousandsquite a big peekchure thoughquantity matters?perhaps, but quality does.4 years and countingperhaps a year wasteddue to hopeless precisionmade by reckless decisionsreminisce not that yearcontented with the restanticipating the futureawkwardness setting inoptimism might helppessimism consideredcome what may, thou shalt gambatte kudasai nethe frankness in me, deafening silence always,musters the courage.guilty i may feel, regret i did not.it was a lie when i smiledand said that i wont feel a thingponder no longer.facades shall endmasquerades wont repeat. (actually i no more inspiration alr. nice way to end right? LOL)all in all,
just wanna say that you play an important part in my life.
i really do feel sad when i see you sad
and your mood affects me.
all the best for you (:
Labels: MAGGY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
A Secret That Can't Be Told
23:12Y
Monday 25 August 2008
IF YOU GUYS DONT KNOW HIM. HES THE ONE ON THE RIGHT
JUST SO YOU WAIT JUSTIN CHANG CHEEBYE. YOU WILL GET YOUR DESERVED PUNISHMENT WHICH WILL BEFALL ON YOU SOON. YOU WILL LOSE ALL YOUR BETS AND EVERYTHING.
since he called me before my camp to ask me for dota. its one redeeming factor so ive changed that vulgar words font. LOL
i have no faith in you any longer.the more i see you,the excruciating pain,takes over whats left of myempty shell.i hope the likes of you,will just disappear from the world,cease to exist,so that i never will know such a person.so dear whom i hold deeply in my forsaken heart.i wish to be reborned as a tree.so when i set my roots in,forever will i be there and,all my loved ones will be around me.Labels: all that facade. what a masquerade.
A Secret That Can't Be Told
00:37Y
Tuesday 19 August 2008
mentally and physically exhausted. been sleeping for a few hours or not even sleeping for the past few weeks -.- esp last week til now. damn tired. and super stressed. im afraid i will forward poa zzzz v mafun lei 6 modules next sem -.- POA SOMEONE HELP PLEASE. slept 2 hours last night and woke up at around 12.30? or 1.15 i think. chanted till 1.45. felt damn energetic all of a sudden. prayed for wisdom to study the correct stuff and high life condition. ATE DHA PILLS WHEET. all the damn business management memorising stuff wtf is really imba or. studied all the way till the exams and went for it. haiz forgot one to two stuff and didnt do 2 questions damnit.
POAPOAPOAPOABLAWBLAWBLAWBLAW BOTH MY SHITTIEST AND OMFG WED AND THURS ARGH
Labels: fatigue
A Secret That Can't Be Told
01:08Y
Saturday 16 August 2008
studied so hard but end up also cannot score wtf. I CANT BELIEVE I MADE SUCH AN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL MISTAKE. 3 X 80 I PUT 160 WTFUCKKKKKKKKKK. HOPE MY WORKING CORRECT BAH. SINGAPORE ECONOMY BULLSHIT. HALF OF 1ST 20 MARKS BULLSHIT. 1/2 OF MONEY BULLSHIT. SO? RESULTS = BULLSHIT BAHHHHH. but lucky my maec still okay cuz my average is around 70+. but im damn worried about my poa and blaw. d's for both i think. at the best my blaw c bah. but i know nuts about both so and worse is that both are back to backkkkk in terms of date. 20th and 21st zz. whoever said econs was interesting. rebekah did. IM FREAKING TIRED. STRESSED. PIMPLESIFIED.
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A Secret That Can't Be Told
00:42Y
Friday 15 August 2008
A Secret That Can't Be Told
01:40Y
Thursday 14 August 2008
9 days without brian that fag
watched harold and kumar recently. no link movie bzzt. but quite hilarious.
just finished watching step up 2 WHOOOOOOOOOOOO. damn dope those dancers wtf
webcam is fun. webcam with brian jacq quan and brians cousins.
i studied one whole day yea. but im still v confused. nothing seems to get in. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. shall tidy up everything tmr and do ALL THE PAST YEAR PAPERS GAMBATTE KUDASAI NE~
edit: which reminds me that rebekah's getting prettier omgawd.
extract from alfred's blog : nicky's house. went to glm and pool with quan, hl, jerome. saw rebekah and ozy there.
HAHAHAHHAA. i like.
Labels: movies
A Secret That Can't Be Told
02:22Y
Thursday 7 August 2008
2 days without brian
group pic at terminal 3
mie lurb euu lotx worhs
THERE ARE JUST TOO MANY PICTURES. i bet you guys have them and dont really wanna see lots of pics and it takes alot of time uploading them.
so i will just post ONE. for entertainment purpose
LOOK. ITS DAMN EPIC LA HAHAHAHAA. look at rome sulking. cuz she aint looking at him. LOOK AT HIS EYES. they are looking at her. and look at brians and fabians cheeky smile HAHAHAAA. justin is just too good?
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00:05Y
Monday 4 August 2008
1 day without brianIt really really has been a turbulent weekend for me. emotional rollercoaster rides. friday was a very stupid day for me. i couldnt finish my dss final paper. felt so sad. nra briefing was boring. went home. couldnt sleep. cuz my parents didnt allow me to go for brians farewell yacht party. i was so disappointed in myself.
the next day i decided to muster my courage and ask one more time. you don't get chances to do that often in your life right. and after much begging and pleading and i even cried. my dad allowed but just for saturday stayover and no sunday ones. =/ better than nothing.
went over to vivo to get quan's present. had to get la haha buddy plus he got me one on mine. (though it was really big but i loved it, you can get something better next year i suppose HAHAHAHA.) didnt really see anything noice cept for the playboy shirt at topman haha. sorry la though yours cheaper in comparison to justin's and brian's one but thought that counts right ^^
shared subway with le and headed over to the cove with alfie yx le and shaun. woah the place was a real knockout. especially the yacht. kinda like once in a lifetime. thanks lots to brian. and his dad for tanking all the thing. the buffet was WOAH. but sadly i didnt have the appetite, zzzzzzzz. celebrated quans birthday brians and justins one together haha. could see quan was really happy and brian as well and justin i suppose though he didnt get to kiss but im sure he kissed before alot times la so doesnt matter. talked to the 2e5 ppl. times FLIES SO FAST ZZ. 5 years already bzzt. sec sch life best la dont have to deal with so many troubles like partings and farewells.
took lots of pics. shall do them up as soon as justin hl and the rest with the pics compile them. the jc peeps went home first and somehow quan got drunk. too happy i supposed or actually mixed feelings. could tell he really will miss brian thus first time get drunk la huh.
had to choose btween the ndp preview or dinner and time with brian. tough choice cuz i disappointed all my group members, but i chose brian. bad choice? no. turn back the time and i will do exactly the same thing. my dad called and kped. i really cried my heart out when i heard i have to leave NOW, cuz he found out that i ponned. i was really very devastated and i really didnt know what to do. lucky there was quan there. and the pat on my head by justin really do made me feel better. somehow or another my dad allowed but i had to be home by 9 the next day morn zz. couldnt let brian see me like that so took me a while to wipe away everything.
the drunk quan was spouting all the nonsense and brian went into the room with dawn. haiz. slacked around and went to the outside to slack alone BUT GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME THERE WAS ROME, AND THEN CHRISTINE HAIZ. byebye to solo drinking. but i did drink quite a fair bit. didnt realise and soon i was high. spouted all the steph stuff zz. i felt really down at that time.
couldnt walk straight. slacked with ningy and mag till i dozed off. chionged home with teck the next day and a ouch 18 bucks cab. slept and watched money no enough with my family. love them though my dad v kp. the next day i almost overslept thanks to lele's call HAHA. cabbed with alfie shaun and yx to airport. shant elaborate but lots of hugging and THANKS TO CB SHAUN NOW MY MOUTH HAVE PIMPLES LIAO SERIOUS ZZ. took pics as well. really didnt want to cry in front of brian. at the point of time when he walked past the entrance thingy i dunno how to say la. i cried but not alot like quan and neeeky. wanted to rush there to hug him but yx said something real true. how is he supposed to go if you go over and everyone does that. didnt want to say goodbye as i believe we will meet up soon. but end up i said it once haha. couldnt tahan. that hug was really good, warm and long.
everyone was mentally and physically tired so after breakfast we all went home, some to school.
slept all the way and haid daimokukai. had some encouragement and they really came at the right time when i was down and out. share with you guys. perhaps you may need it.
Enjoy whats there to enjoy, suffer whats there to suffer. As long as you have faith( for me is chant la duh)
dont take your ups for granted and complain all day about your downs. everyone has them. not only you. so yes the phrase up there is really true.
We must not compare ourselves to others. What is important is that we strive to be better today than we were yesterday and be better tomorrow than we are today.
come on guys. i think we can do it. in studies.for kfc. everything for yourselves and for the team. im sure brian and eddy wants us to win all our games and do well in our studies.
GO FORTH!
brian you idiot i really miss you. late night chats and stuff. i will never forget them.
edit: i guess we need to cherish our loved ones before they are gone. CHALET ON HOLIDAYS OKAY!Labels: Saturday Rendezvous Farewell Monday
A Secret That Can't Be Told
23:38Y
MAG.
IF YOU GUYS DONT KNOW HIM. HES THE ONE ON THE RIGHT
