Monday, 4 August 2008
1 day without brianIt really really has been a turbulent weekend for me. emotional rollercoaster rides. friday was a very stupid day for me. i couldnt finish my dss final paper. felt so sad. nra briefing was boring. went home. couldnt sleep. cuz my parents didnt allow me to go for brians farewell yacht party. i was so disappointed in myself.
the next day i decided to muster my courage and ask one more time. you don't get chances to do that often in your life right. and after much begging and pleading and i even cried. my dad allowed but just for saturday stayover and no sunday ones. =/ better than nothing.
went over to vivo to get quan's present. had to get la haha buddy plus he got me one on mine. (though it was really big but i loved it, you can get something better next year i suppose HAHAHAHA.) didnt really see anything noice cept for the playboy shirt at topman haha. sorry la though yours cheaper in comparison to justin's and brian's one but thought that counts right ^^
shared subway with le and headed over to the cove with alfie yx le and shaun. woah the place was a real knockout. especially the yacht. kinda like once in a lifetime. thanks lots to brian. and his dad for tanking all the thing. the buffet was WOAH. but sadly i didnt have the appetite, zzzzzzzz. celebrated quans birthday brians and justins one together haha. could see quan was really happy and brian as well and justin i suppose though he didnt get to kiss but im sure he kissed before alot times la so doesnt matter. talked to the 2e5 ppl. times FLIES SO FAST ZZ. 5 years already bzzt. sec sch life best la dont have to deal with so many troubles like partings and farewells.
took lots of pics. shall do them up as soon as justin hl and the rest with the pics compile them. the jc peeps went home first and somehow quan got drunk. too happy i supposed or actually mixed feelings. could tell he really will miss brian thus first time get drunk la huh.
had to choose btween the ndp preview or dinner and time with brian. tough choice cuz i disappointed all my group members, but i chose brian. bad choice? no. turn back the time and i will do exactly the same thing. my dad called and kped. i really cried my heart out when i heard i have to leave NOW, cuz he found out that i ponned. i was really very devastated and i really didnt know what to do. lucky there was quan there. and the pat on my head by justin really do made me feel better. somehow or another my dad allowed but i had to be home by 9 the next day morn zz. couldnt let brian see me like that so took me a while to wipe away everything.
the drunk quan was spouting all the nonsense and brian went into the room with dawn. haiz. slacked around and went to the outside to slack alone BUT GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME THERE WAS ROME, AND THEN CHRISTINE HAIZ. byebye to solo drinking. but i did drink quite a fair bit. didnt realise and soon i was high. spouted all the steph stuff zz. i felt really down at that time.
couldnt walk straight. slacked with ningy and mag till i dozed off. chionged home with teck the next day and a ouch 18 bucks cab. slept and watched money no enough with my family. love them though my dad v kp. the next day i almost overslept thanks to lele's call HAHA. cabbed with alfie shaun and yx to airport. shant elaborate but lots of hugging and THANKS TO CB SHAUN NOW MY MOUTH HAVE PIMPLES LIAO SERIOUS ZZ. took pics as well. really didnt want to cry in front of brian. at the point of time when he walked past the entrance thingy i dunno how to say la. i cried but not alot like quan and neeeky. wanted to rush there to hug him but yx said something real true. how is he supposed to go if you go over and everyone does that. didnt want to say goodbye as i believe we will meet up soon. but end up i said it once haha. couldnt tahan. that hug was really good, warm and long.
everyone was mentally and physically tired so after breakfast we all went home, some to school.
slept all the way and haid daimokukai. had some encouragement and they really came at the right time when i was down and out. share with you guys. perhaps you may need it.
Enjoy whats there to enjoy, suffer whats there to suffer. As long as you have faith( for me is chant la duh)
dont take your ups for granted and complain all day about your downs. everyone has them. not only you. so yes the phrase up there is really true.
We must not compare ourselves to others. What is important is that we strive to be better today than we were yesterday and be better tomorrow than we are today.
come on guys. i think we can do it. in studies.for kfc. everything for yourselves and for the team. im sure brian and eddy wants us to win all our games and do well in our studies.
GO FORTH!
brian you idiot i really miss you. late night chats and stuff. i will never forget them.
edit: i guess we need to cherish our loved ones before they are gone. CHALET ON HOLIDAYS OKAY!Labels: Saturday Rendezvous Farewell Monday
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