The Untold secret

Thursday, 25 September 2008

i think i'll just summarise what i did over the week.

sat- soccer in the morning with the usual clique with the special appearance of pri sch friend. 0.0 she looked pretty with that dressing i guess. kk then it took us bout one hour to finally settle down and started playing. it was really fun cuz we hadnt been playing tgt for quite some time. haha. the feeling was damn good and nostalgic. played from 11+ til 4 like that. so was feeling freaking shag. headed over to beauty world to play pool with nra clique. wth i waited in the scorching sun for like nearly and hour !@#%^$&$#@ so sticky and tired alr. but who cares we still had fun didnt we LOL. so yea after that we headed over to kim san leng near justins house for dinner. then we went to take table and tiles and walked all the way to my hse LOL damn paiseh or. slacked , some psp and ps2 then me nana jeremy kk/wenxiang mahjonged. jer won 1 me won 5 nana won 25 LOL. poor kk and wenxiang. then we played circle of death. DAMN FUN TO SEE THOSE HIGH ONES DO STUPID THINGS LA LOL. then mikhial made a rule say we cannot use the chinese eng and dialect of drink the word. then everyone keep kena and have to drink. lester and kaixun were the lucky ones to drink our mixture of alcoholic and shit contents
nana was the most high one alr bah LOL.

the more friends you have, the more characters you notice.

i have no faith in you any longer.
the more i see you,
the excruciating pain,
takes over whats left of my empty shell.
i hope the likes of you,
will just disappear from the world,
cease to exist,
so that i never will know such a person.
so dear whom i hold deeply in my forsaken heart.
i wish to be reborned as a tree.
so when i set my roots in,
forever will i be there and,
all my loved ones will be around me.

after reading my previous composition, i had further thoughts.

ironically, enlightenment occured
past nor future.
precisely when it meant to.
knowledge, insights came,
pouring in like,
it was not in my dictionary.
perceiving matters with
increment of maturity.
distrust in love
you made me.
unwilling to commit
you caused it.

confidence lacking,
reality sets in,
it really was not meant to be
you and me
its wrong you see

somehow, i dont regret that period of time,
for that short stint was probably my happiest period in my life.
probably i wont forget what happened.
for you may not give a hoot about me
but as long as you're happy.
its fine with me.
i just really do regret i cannot give more than what i gave.
for love is giving one's all and regrets that one cannot give no more.

no longer the naive, happy go lucky and nonchalant me.
i just cant seemt to really smile and i feel so fake forcing a smile.
ive changed a great deal. even ah hu says so. HUUUUUU~
i sure do hope time heals all wounds. esp this infected one.

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