Friday, 27 March 2009
sian, i feel so much like a loser, yi wen bu zhi, when i compare myself with my friends.
they are like so funny, good in something.
its like they are unique, i feel like nothing with them. even now. i feel distant.
its always me trying to talk to them. like i need them more x23405498574 times than they need me. yea true, i gave much thought about it, its like i cant give anything to them.
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02:27Y
Thursday, 26 March 2009
i have totally no mood to do anything.
close eyes open eyes also think of the same thing.
waiting like an idiot but when you're online.
i dont do anything.
its non-stop thinking action seriously.
i have flu cough fever from this confusing chain of thoughts.
this is the hardest so far for these 2 years.
i hope i can control myself please.
Labels: retarded
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23:52Y
Wednesday, 25 March 2009
the silence is deafening
so says the mainstream
that all wounds
bound to heal with time
time awaits no one
Alas, fate struck its vengeance
Know not the true meaning of love
Part ways, we must
Though no longer together
Your melodious voice still lingers
Deep in my disenchanted heart
I still long for the bittersweet love
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00:21Y
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
give me a few more days, i will find the answer.
and todays hasnt been very good for me.
choosing a crap timetable for next semester spells bad luck for today, perhaps this coming sem.
from 14k in tournament. 10% you know? can split pot...
down to 0
lost like 20k in poker due to the fast i had this number 2 card in my hand consecutively 9 times. i swear.
and overall like 20 times.
and my mums nagging bout my gpa, sigh.
sometimes i really do need meaning in my life, to derive motivation out of it.
plan tmr. meet kimseng i think. perhaps evan. i really do not know.
Labels: solitude
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22:23Y
Monday, 23 March 2009
fuckkkkkk, please enlighten me. its been years but is this really what i want?
its like im hooked on a drug. this feeling bottled up inside, im really feeling v uneasy and uncomfortable. i cant even sleep. but im afraid this is all just a facade, or perhaps i am thinking too much, i need sometime to ascertain my thoughts.
or im just afraid of failure. i really do not know.
Tell thy love to never seek
Love that never told can be;
For the gentle wind does move
Invisibly, Silently
I told my love, I told my love
With all my heart, I told her
Cold, trembling in ghastly fears-
Alas, she doth depart.
Quickly, she was gone from me
A traveller came by
Invisibly, silently-
was undeniable
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04:07Y
Saturday, 21 March 2009
in a life where you keep running past others, there are only..
actually, there's only a few times when your heart becomes one with another's
if that's the case, i'm happy to be able to see a face like this
i'm happy to be able to jump for joy like this.
Labels: thoughts
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15:35Y
Friday, 13 March 2009
summer days
winter nights
after a hundred years,
i'll come back to you
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